The Reason Sarah Drew Won't Watch 'Grey's Anatomy' Will Tear You Up Inside

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Seriously? Seriously. My heart is shattered.

Sarah Drew on Watching Grey's Anatomy Season 15

We've been heartbroken about Sarah Drew's departure from Grey's Anatomy since before her final exit in season 14. April Kepner was an iconic character, unapologetically herself and a delight to watch blossom into her own for nine years.

And while some of us have started the recovery process as Grey's Anatomy season 15 officially returned this fall, we know that some fans have stopped watching the show. One of them being Drew.

However, the reason why Drew can't watch the latest season of Grey's is all-too-relatable, especially if you've experienced a hard breakup. And yes, the way she explains it will tear you up inside.

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While speaking to reporters at the 2018, Rape Foundation annual brunch, Drew revealed that it would be too painful for her to watch Grey's season 15.

"I haven't been watching," Drew said. "You know, it‘s a little painful to kind of go and watch your family move on without you."

Excuse us as we sob profusely.

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However, despite taking a break from watching new episodes of Grey's and being "devastated" that Jackson (Jesse Williams) and April wouldn't be end game when she was initially let go in the spring, Drew has nothing but respect for her experience with the series.

"[Being let go] was painful when it happened," Drew said. "But, in retrospect, I think it would have been hard for me to walk away from that job. I was on it for nine years. It feels right and it feels like a good time to move on to something else with all the great love in my heart that I have for everybody and respect and gratitude for what that experience was. Playing a character for nine years is a long haul."

Spoken like a true queen, as always.

And while we miss Drew and this news is devastating for fans to hear, we're excited to see where Drew is taken next.

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